The fall 

tl;dr — I bought a drobo then dropped the hard drive I was going to copy onto it. Got emotional on twitter about it.

  • visit your friends
  • see their big tv, which is not a tv, but a screen, and the drobo blinking beside it
  • they call it a drobo, you complain about space
  • when they give you a spare hard drive, take it home and say thank you
  • look at your pile of drives
  • listen to the fans
  • add this new drive to the pile
  • believe Jason when he mentions the drobo is good
  • google the drobo thing
  • look at the drobo site
  • gasp
  • quit your job (unrelated)
  • spend hours moving your files around
  • wonder what you’ve done with your life
  • see it’s all garbage, but there are some things
  • look at the drobo site
  • gasp again, doubly
  • remember Aaron said something about selling his drobo
  • ask Aaron if he’s selling his drobo
  • be grateful Aaron says his drobo doesn’t work well
  • remember the internet is about not paying full price.
  • look at amazon, it is cheaper
  • add a five-bay drobo to your amazon cart
  • close the window
  • return to amazon, look at your cart
  • add a book you want, like you’re just buying a book
  • close the window again
  • jason scott will tweet about newegg
  • newegg is not amazon
  • not amazon is better than amazon
  • you will order from new egg
  • you will panic momentarily, but tweet about it
  • when no one tweets that you are stupid, you will close twitter.
  • wait some days
  • get the drobo
  • realize the drobo wants empty drives, not full ones
  • play a shell game of moving things around drives until each is empty
  • start with the smallest
  • put each empty drive in the drobo, one by one
  • call them their sizes: 500gb, 750gb, 1tb, 2tb
  • when you are done, see there is really not so much space
  • there is still one more drive, which is biggest and still two-thirds full
  • see the problem
  • try copying some files around, the very big ones
  • leave copying for overnight
  • when it fails, try again
  • there’s still not enough room, think some more
  • if there were a place to move these three terabytes, then there would be room in the drobo
  • for hours, keep shuffling
  • do the math
  • take a trip to another city
  • return home and tell yourself this trip was not so expensive
  • google more hard drives
  • order another big hard drive
  • do some things because it is the weekend
  • realize that nothing ships sunday
  • see that for twenty dollars, you can get it on tuesday which is sooner
  • look at bank account
  • look at shipping options
  • do it anyway
  • wait (but not as long)
  • work all day and all night until it is tuesday
  • check the tracking
  • out for delivery
  • you have not slept, but that’s unimportant
  • hear the sound of a truck
  • hear the truck drive away
  • wait some more, until later
  • see the fedex truck and run to the door
  • hear the buzzer
  • run back
  • tell him one second
  • be thankful and smile
  • run up the stairs
  • take a picture of the box
  • unpack the box
  • take a screenshot of drobo dashboard
  • unmount all the hard drives
  • unwire the firewires, unplug the plugs
  • start turning around the drobo
  • bump into the thing
  • what is the thing
  • this time is so slow
  • the thing it is falling
  • the drive it is falling
  • the drive that is spinning
  • the drive with the stuff
  • the one with the stuff
  • stick out your foot
  • foot under the falling
  • the crunch of the thing
  • oh shit
  • wait a second
  • no worries, don’t worry
  • unwrap the new drive and it goes in the drobo
  • now there is room
  • plug it in
  • it is beeping
  • why is it beeping?
  • is it really beeping?
  • tweet about it. tweeting will help
  • delete the tweet.
  • unplug the drive
  • put the drive in the freezer
  • tweet some more
  • delete those tweets, too
  • take it out of the freezer and plug it in
  • it will beep
  • and keep beeping
  • until you unplug it
  • now there is space
  • you have some of the files
  • when you sleep, you will wonder
  • what has been lost?
  • and what would it cost?
  • and does it all matter?
  • and when will you know that something is missing?
  • and what of the rest?
  • and you will dream
    that the knowing
  • was always out of reach